I am a slow study but I feel I am learning the acceptance and letting go part of this lesson little by little. I do get thrown off track sometimes by things going on with H but I get back on track much quicker than I used to.

I have a long way to go before I have it mastered but I never give up. I do, however, feel strongly that God wants me to stand for my marriage. I have not felt the need to begin another R for a very long time. I know that it would be a bad idea until I have totally resolved the feeling I still have for my H. I don't think it will come to another R but I could be wrong. Whenever I have asked for a sign, I seem to get one. Right now my balance is coming from the book The Purpose Driven Life.

Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.