First Holly: my daughter swims breast and has a pretty good free. This is an age group team and she is on the low end of the 12 and unders so I hope that she will hold her own. S14 swam high school districts tonight. He swims back and free. His back time dropped 8 seconds since the start of the season and he finished 7 in the district in the 100 back. Not bad for a freshman. He came in 10th in the 200 free. He is thrilled. Best times in both events for him for the season. I love watching them. THey both started at 6 yrs old barely making it from one end of the pool to the next and now they are so good!!
H absence at s14's championships and districts was noticed. WHen he shows up tomorrow to see d11 it will really strike a chord with s14.
Snodderly, thanks for the positive feedback. I have my own C. She is so in tune with me and with my situation. She helped me to see that H is trying to use C to try to show the kids that D is ok with both of us. NO IT IS NOT!! Anyway, not sure why all the tm. Why didn't he pick up the phone and call? He is probably stewing about the CC still. Still trying to heep the blame on me and justify his actions. I don't know how I can have him continue C. I will ask s14's c (the same one that h and I saw) if the 2 of them should continue at this time. S14 is seeing his guidance C once a week so I am not sure if he needs to see this guy too. This is all part of H trying to not be the bad guy. Having everyone say it's okay to walk out on your family H. No problem. Because noone says this it is killing him. He wants to be liked by all.
Anyway, I asked friends of mine to save me a seat tomorrow where H can't come in to chat. I hope he doesn't ambush me elsewhere. Haven't told s14 about the christening saga yet. I want him to enjoy his great night at swim. He seems so stressed out and I worry about him.
I am exhausted but know I won't sleep. I wonder if my late night caller will be on the prowl tonight. Snodderly, is my M doomed at this point? Honest opionion. I feel like I am dealing with someone totally irrational and looking for justification for an A. I feel like I am hanging on to this by a thread and I don't know if he can emerge from this crisis. It is like he is a broken man and I am the cause of it in his eyes.
Thanks for your well wishes for d and all of your support. I am not sure how I would get through some of this without you.
