hello everyone, time for an update since october 2006. first, happy new year. well, not much really. we still dont communicate, and she sent me her papers, i am so lazy to go to a lawyer. unbelievable, because it just drains to think about legal stuff. however, i have to. so there, all the pain and suffering to reach a point in which you realize that you are born by yourself, and that is the way you will die, by yourself. dont have someone in my life, and am pretty content learning to cope and live with myself. i have moments of joy and sadness, and i have learned to live with them. i have this gut instinct that tells that i will find someone or her again, i dont know, but pretty much dont care. my Ds are doing fine, and they are ok, of course it wasnt easy, but they cope just fine. hmmmmmmm, i actually have no advice, however, i read often, and can relate to all the pain, and impatience of all the messes of ruined relationships. when the spouse does not want you anymore, and you have this desperate need to fix things, in weeks, which to you are eternal ages, is sort of innocent and cute, when i read them. i try to send mental warmth to thos hearts, but that is all i can do actually, for all this journey is God teaching in silence. in eternal silence. actually, one does grow up, and becomes definitely better i believe, IF one goes through the bridge of pain and reflects upon what occured.
