Journaling,
Well I haven't seen H since monday's explosion C office. I got 2 calls at 2 am on thurs and friday but none last night. I wonder if he just wants to wake me up or what. Anyway d11 and I went out to run errands. H sent tm asking about d11s swim champ. tomorrow ( he couldn't come to s14's but he'll be there for hers...ugh). Anyway as we were texting he asked if the kids could come to his sister's for baby christening next sunday. This is the same sister that he said was a b##%h and never wanted to be in the same room again several months ago. SHe had the nerve to tell him he needed help. Anyway, I told him I would drop kids off (won't go in) since s14 would probably not go in the car with him. Why make he and s14 uncomfortable from the start. I think H wanted to walk into sister's like nothing is wrong and he is super dad. I don't know if s14 will go. I hope he does. I doubt he will speak to his father there. I wish I could be a fly on the wall.

Anyway at the end of the tm he asked if we would continue c. I said not at this time. I didn't go into detail on a text message but I feel like h is trying to get me to form a united front on the d and to show the kids it's ok. Well it's not. I don't feel safe in a room with him either hurling accusations at me or him lying about the events of the past. Sorry. Not going to happen.

So, I am off to see s14 swim district high school meet tonight. Tomorrow is d11 swim champs. and I am hoping I don't see H there. I just can't get into it anymore. Is it true, the more you detach the harder it is for them. That is my motivation right now. I am going to just let him out there and see what happens. He is such a mess I can't stand to see it.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Mopsey..

ps for those following along, d11's cell phone was found in the snow outside. Must have dropped it on the way to friend's house. SO H accuses s14 of hiding it from her and accuses d11 of breaking it and not telling anyone. Nice....it was in the snow all along. Thank goodness for insurance...phone is covered.