I am just curious...when you initiate are you timid? I can certainly understand being timid because of the attitude and rejection from your wife. But curious have you ever tried a more forceful approach to initiating? Like man woman it has been way to long get upstairs I am going to fu** your brains out? LOL Maybe that one is to much. But have you ever tried anything like that? Just a more forceful kind of cocky approach?
