Lisa,
Thank you so very much for your response. It helps keep the feet on the ground. It's amazing how the definition of "love" changes. Whether we want that "feeling", how much work and anxiety intimacy can bring. For one thing I'm really happy that your H saw the light and that he is with you again. I'm very happy for you that you found happiness in your own actions. You really sound sincere and your posts resound with a lot of love for your H. We are very lucky that you visit us here to share your experience. Anyway, so this is a big fat thank you for your inspiration and posts.

As for me, showing love. Some of that is about showing oneself, without expecting anything in return, uncondional love?
Take care, I will post again as my sitch changes and I am able to show the love. At the present time, I'm a little dark. I need to pull myself together here. Did you ever retreat?
Sarah