Dotto, I don't know what I'm doing in this forum, "Piecing" except trying to find hope; wishful thinking. I read the threads, trying to find a key, the key to opening up my H's heart. Although he's not ready, he's closer that he's been before, I think. My H is in the category Love is not tough, it's easy or should be, and if it's not, then it's not right. All will be ok, somehow, someway. On the one side, these guys don't deserve us, on the other we have now realized relationships are work. DB till death do us part, that should be our motto! Backslide today. OR talk, H says "You said you didn't like my friends". Didn't defend myself at least. I said "I can't do anything about the past. You can decide to put all that stuff and put it in a box and put it on the shelf or you can choose to keep bringing it up. My intentions were never to hurt you". I also said "I think I handle the kids better than you" and he called me on it. I said "you know I love you" H says, "I do not". Sarah
