Thanks Nicola. I know you are right. I do need to focus on me and get rid of the self-pity. I waffle back and forth about continuing to bet or folding my hand. Remember the old song:
“you gotta know when to hold’em, “know when to fold’em, “know when to walk away, “know when to run…”
I wish I knew. I do know I still want my family but I also know I cannot continue on like this forever. If I continue on and nothing changes I will always feel a failure; my kids deserve better, much better. If my W truly believes that I am no longer right for her then she cannot be right for me. But if I fold my hand, that feeling of failure is still there, even though I agree with what you said.
In the end I believe that you, and many others, are right, I must focus on me. Since I cannot control her, I must do what is best for me and my kids. I will think on that hard.
But first I need to get myself together.
Thanks again Nicola. And WCW, ISLH, Jenny, SD. Wow ladies, thanks!!
