Do not mind at all sweetie,, I am on Lexapro it is for anxiety and depression. @ 2.5 weeks ago I had a severe Panic attack. I mean my body even locked up and it lasted for a good 20 minutes. It was scary. To say the least. I had been having Anxiety for a few years actually now ( ever since my H cheated the first time actually, it was to much for me )and I foolishly thought I did not need to take medicine. I was prescribed meds back then and thought well I can overcome this I do not want to take a pill everyday. I even tried to say this a few weeks ago to my DR again and he said wouldnt it just be so much better if you did not have to feel like this everyday?
AND WITH TEARS streaming down my face I said " yes it would .."
The first few days I slept aloooooooooot like I had not slept in years. ( I dont think I had slept good in years !!!) I read the side effects and was really trying to find excuses to stop taking it , I felt like a failure for having to take medicine . Normal people dont have to take meds, etc ,etc. One of the side effects is low sex drive and I have had quite the opposite effect. ( FINGERS CROSSED ) And I also looked for natural remedies to enhance my drive and I read that taking GINKGO BILOBA has been shown to help. So now I take 2 of those and I excercise at least 3 times or more a week. And I feel like I am getting back to normal again. For years I had a very low drive and it started when I was 30 and I am now 36.... Not good.
I used to have a very high drive,, so now I am keeping my fingers crossed for it to come back. And my DR did say that alot of is has to do with my brain,, if I feel like I can trust then I can get back to me too.
So I hope all my rambling has helped you some.... I really do appreciate your posts they mean alot to me. I am doing all I can to become a better me and in the end I hope to show my H just how much he means to me. I love him so much and just want to get this right and shine so he can smile too.
