And the thing is, the love was right there for the taking. H offered love to me every day. But I couldn't truly accept it. I didn't know how to love and I didn't know how to be loved.
This is where S3 came in. He offered me love every day too, and I was able to accept it. I really tried to treat him the way I wanted to be treated. I freely accepted his love and I freely gave him love. And it brought me a lot of joy.
But then I began to think, why can I so freely exchange love with my child and have difficulty doing so with my H? How are they different? Then I realized that they aren't any different. I realized that my H deserved to be treated with same kindness, love and respect that I showed to my child. I also realized that I deserved to be treated the same way.
