Cemar, that's really interesting. You've helped me understand my feelings about smell a bit more.
I've suspected for quite a while that my desire for H has been greatly inhibited by the smell of smoke on him. I don't know his scent because it's covered up by smoke. He's tried to quit smoking a couple of times and during those (more recent) times, I honestly reveled in being able to smell him, being able to truly breathe in his scent. I know non-smokers get this, but only a fellow HSP would get how BIG a deal smell is to us. It's HUGE.
Sometimes during the day, when he's at work, I'll start to think about him and feel desire for him. Often it's triggered by something I see, maybe a couple on TV. I start thinking about ML that night and look forward to his arrival from work. When he arrives, I smell the smoke and my desire starts to dissipate. Then I think maybe I don't really want to ML after all. Well, that's the way I used to think.
