I haven't posted to you in a while, but I will do my part to lock this thread.
You are such a good man. You have made mistakes, and learned from them. You offer yourself to others, putting them first. You still want to do right by your XW.
Jeff, you will be writing a post like Bill's, and very soon, I should think. The only missing piece, the way I see it, is putting YOURSELF at the top of your list. I know your mum occupies that place right now-that's the way it has to be for now-but soon, you must be there. That really is the only way to be sure that you can continue to be there for others.
Best, Nicola
Life isn't about finding yourself; it's about creating yourself My thread: Trusting God's Plan