I have not felt like updating my thread, but I see it's been two weeks. I am spending much less time here, and it's been good for me. I can see that it's something I need to do. I have still been too focused on H, which is so easy to do when we see each other 3x a week.
Things are very good with me. I have ups and downs, but generally am up. My downs are usually not R-related, but b/c I am stressed with work, kids, home. I am finding it very difficult to keep up with housework, so I am looking for someone to clean. I've not had much luck in that area in the past b/c I'm quite fussy, but I've found a cleaning service that seems good.
Other than that, marking has really begun, and will continue now till the end of term in mid-May. We don't get a spring break. I am off today, and planned to get a lot of work done, but the kids have a snow day! First one ever for D10, who is in grade 4. The fighting has already begun.
My wine course is going well, but is almost done. When it's over, I will go back to choir. I'm doing yoga regularly again, and it's great.
I found out that my doggie has a heart murmer. Unfortunately, I never go insurance for her b/c it's very costly ($35/month), so now they won't cover anything to do with that. But her condition is not as bad as I thought, so far: She had an X-ray yesterday that looks good, and will see a cardiologist(!) for an ultrasound in three weeks. Her heart is not enlarged, so that's a good sign.
As for H, things are going fine. I have found that the less I post, the better things are. When I read all the sad stories here on the bb (not just this forum), I tend to feel despairing and negative, and I think that affects our interactions. I had a really bad day on Monday--one of those Murphy's Law days--and was lying in bed crying about it, but too tired to post anything. Later in the night, I finally realized that H and I had had a good interaction (he had crossed the street to say hello with a big smile on his face), but it had gone sour when I asked him about his court case, and he couldn't get away fast enough. I had only remembered the last bit, but needed to get my head out of my butt long enough to really see what happened.
I realize that I don't ride these waves well when I write too much about the day-to-day happenings. Also, I really need to focus on my work, which has suffered over the last year and a half.
So, really, nothing much to say. I'm doing well, just taking care of myself.
I'm still checking in on others, but just don't post every day.
Lots of love, Nicola
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