Hi Paul, I've never posted to you.........; my you are a strong man....I couldn't handle seeing my H as often as you see your wife, so I've gone No Contact for a while. My H considers himself divorced as well, but we have never even discussed the possibility. He has a young OW (24) and he himself is 35. I'm 34 and we have 3 kids (8,6,3). We had been together for 17 years.....;we had so much love and passion but according to him we "broke" things....Oh well...you know how it goes ....
He is the type that wants to have a great friendship with me, see the kids as often as HE likes and have his OW on the side as often as HE likes........ I couldn't deal with it anymore and we've just come back from a ski trip with the whole family (H, myself, and the kids) and it was GREAT, I realised how much I still love him and how much I miss him. The reality of life when we got back (him going back to OW) hit me so hard that I needed to initiate NC again....it hurts...it really does. I'd LOVE to see him often, like you see your wife, but it pains me too much and I also feel that he is stuck in REPLAY by me just fullfilling his "fantasy", he needs to see some conseaquences I guess, SOMETHING, but mainly I need to let him go and I need to have my life because I constantly live in his !!!
I wish I had your strength and your obvious calmness to see things for what they are !!!
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
