I have not posted for ages, but have been checking and lurking everyday keeping up with threads, and praying for lots of you on these boards! I am riding the high wave at the moment. I know it will crash but I am living each day to its fullest and treasuring each day as it comes. H & I are good, and my love for him is growing everyday. He is filling my love banks for a change, and I really do pray that I am filling his. It’s still like going on a bumpy road, and I feel each bump but with God’s help I am being helped over. H told me twice this week that he loved me. The first I was not at all sure so I just ignored it, and then he said it the next day on the telephone, I thought he was just saying it for the sake of it – like when you say it but not really mean it so again I ignored it, but the following morning he said in bed – I told you on the phone yesterday that I loved you, so I said well I wasn’t really sure you meant it – but thank you it means a lot to me. We are talking more, and he is a lot more affectionate but this is still only in bed. When he leaves and when he comes home however his hugs are more genuine which is wonderful. This weekend he told me the OW had contacted him via and asked if I wanted to see the text- I did get really peeved but let it blow over and ignored the whole thing. If I have been in a mood or tired he asks what’s wrong and makes sure I am not angry or upset with him, and just seems more caring. I know he could revert back to the alien at any time but I am just taking things a day at a time and praising God for all the blessings he is pouring on me and my family. I have gone to a couple of church things, last week we had a chick flick evening, and last night I went to a new once a month service in the evening. I am going to join a house group on a Thursday night and I met the lady who's group I think I am going to join last night. So my GAL is coming along. I still have not snooped. His mobile bill came in and the temptation to look at it was overwelming - I could have done it without him knowing, but I would know and so would God therefore I would not be trusting God to deal with it. He leaves his phone around & I could look at any time - but I am resisting it all, and it makes me feel good!! I hope you all have a blessed and wonderful weekend! Godbless Ash
