it seems to me that I am the one who is more vested in the r and always have been...h does as he pleases..when he pleases and I have to just except that is the way it is...when I "complain" about being stressed or depressed about the total lack of freedom that I have because of the kids..while h is free to do as he pleases...I get "what did you think it would be like having kids" this is a man who clearly just doesn't know how to say the right thing in any situation...gee mr martian...why not hmmm what can WE do to releave some of the stress to you...maybe I could come home early (hell 4 would be great) one day a week and you can go take a nap or something...maybe since now I go watch football all day on sundays..I could stay around with the kids on saturday to give you a break...no why would I do that...it is all about me here...I was the one who had the fortune of being born with a penis...you take care of me and the kids and you'll have your opportunity to do as you please when your 50 but I will continue to do what I want all along.
I am tired...I am depressed...I am lonley..I am hurt...and I don't know what I can do about it anymore and honestly I am tired of trying to fix this r. it's not my problem anymore..I will live in this house...I will take care of my children and I will go about my business...I will come and go as I please whenever h happens to be here...why should I bother to give him my schedule or make plans with him to be here...he doesn't give me that courtesy just assumes I am here to tend to the kids. don't get me wrong...h was not good at the whole r thing even before the kids. his work and football were always more important. time for me to have somethings that are more important too. stinks cause I wanted a r with h...he is a good guy...he is fun and all that..but apparently h doesn't know how to be in a r...or what family really means...I should have known..looking at his family...fil never knows where his wife is...but what can ya do.
