Thanks everyone! I guess lightning can strike in 1 place more than once....H came over and helped me load up the van and the kids to head to North Carolina. I was getting ready to leave so I was telling him goodbye. He held out his arms for a hug. I gave him one and he said "be safe".

I talked to him tonight when I got to NC and after talking for a few I said ILY. He said in a joking tone "yeah i know it." I laughed with him about it. He said "I am sorry. It is just hard right now." This is the first time that he has really said more than just "I know" or "Alright" when I have said those words to him.

I definitely don't want to let my guard down too much. I feel like everytime I do this, something happens to hurt me all over again. I am just going to continue to move forward with my life.

"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."