It sounds to me like you're making a lot of progress. H told you this is where he lives? That's great! He bought the balloon for you. I see lots of positives. As for the shower thing, ask. We have to ask for what we want. Don't fall into the mind reading game. You can't/won't win at that. I see lots of good things for your sitch. Hopefully, someday, I can get to the point where H and I are at least in the same house. Sure do miss him.
