well here's a possitive for ya!! h went to the game last night..8:30 game...I did not expect him to come home..and actually he brought clothes with him incase he didn't (he still has the appartment) but HE CAME HOME!!! and this am...(well actually he's still in bed) I told him that son had asked if he'd be comming over and that I told him no cause I didn't know...and h said to me well this is were I live!!
so I may be down...but I don't think it is all to do with h.. I have not worked since my son was born..and he will be 4 in april..I live in a rural area...so am alone (just me and the kiddos) alot... it's winter... I will be 30 next month (don't know why I care or if I really do...I have done so much already so what's the big deal) I think it's the cabin feaver...my lack of a "persona" who am I but wife and mom?? (I know I'm more I've just been in pitty mode)
and yes what has happend in my marriage does get me down...the ow does get me down...the question of is h telling the truth and it was not pa gets me down.
I will be ok..
we are having christmas here this year and I am so thankful to not have to drag the kids around and load up the car with all the "stuff" they will no doubt be getting from the families..
