well things are still going well, h is still being considerate...there are things that still bother me...

it is not that I feel h nessisarily pulling away...but the exitment seems to have worn off a bit...

h still makes me tea in the am (that is if he wakes up first)
h still cuddles me in bed...
h still calls
h still comes "home" everynight..
but something is missing..and I don't know what it is...maybe it's the persuit I felt from him during that first month..maybe it's just another swing in his libido..(not getting none just not as much and have gotten the I'm tired bit a couple of times, granted I've been tired to but wouldn't sleep be that much better)

maybe I've just been expressing my feelings to much lately...maybe I need to start keeping it to myself and "acting as if again"

so we went out shopping for the kids last night..and you guessed it I took 2 min to go to the bathroom and h was on the phone with buddie...stayed on the phone with buddie while we shopped...phoned buddie a couple more times throughout the evening too....I just think it's rude...I leave my cell in the car and even if someone does call me I don't sit there laughing and joking with them


how do I put up with this rudeness without pissing h off...stay quiet and have him continue it...and hope he stops...or say something...but show him more and more that "it's not enough"
so while we were in the mall we walked by two young guys one of which was on a cell phone chatting away while the other just stood there like wtf? so I commented to h...I hate cell phones...it's one thing when you are out alone and talking to someone (even that's a bit rude) but when you are with someone it is just rude to be with them and carrying on a conversation with another person..
h asked if I was refering to him...I said no I just saw those two...well if you want to throw yourself in too I guess. he didn't seem to have much to say about it other than Iguess your right...

so two things that have always been a problem are once again a problem...
h's damn cell phone and his need to always have it on him..even when he's out with me.
h's in consitant libido.
LL