Quote: P.S.: Saw that you sent yourself some flowers. Are you going to put those somewhere that H can't help but notice? As for going out this evening - is there a coffeehouse or bookstore that you could "hide out" at for a couple of hours?
they are for me to enjoy for myself..but of course they will be displayed proudly bearing the small balloon (if they have one) and or card that reads "you are special"
where h can see them...will he get mad...probably...do I care...probably not...I have told him what I need and he has chosen to take his time and tell me those things will come with time...well sorry but I need them and deserve them now especially after what I've put up with.
as far as tonight...I can always find someplace to go and hang out...thing is I've even noticed the book stores to be a bit of a pick up joint to and let's just say...not to toot my own horn...but I am a hot mamma!! not conceited just convinced. so the attention is still there and will still serve to endanger h's chances....attention from om even if simply admiring looks will only serve to fester the anger I have towards him right now...so may be best to get some christmas shopping done and then hit a movie or something...(please just take my talk as PMA not as a snotty little bitc k )
I don't really want to put the kids in daycare just because h cannot accomidate me....lord knows I accomidate him PLENTY!!!
Quote: web based courses that a local university or community college might offer.
though my spelling and grammar are atrocious (see I can't spell) I actually have a BS already.
LL wow simply ordering myself flowers has given me some strength.
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