so since h is too deaf to hear it.... I've just sent myself a nice bouqet of happy bright fresh cut flowers with a card simply stating YOU ARE SPECIAL...I mean really it didn't take but two seconds...didn't require much thought and when they arive I will feel special!! and I am certainly not ashamed of the fact that I've sent them to myself either....the lady at the place said right on!!! see I just can't lie...the woman asked who they were to be sent to and well it's me so I said I'm sending them to myself...she said she wished she would have thought of that too...well if they wont do it...you can either find someone else who will...or just do it yourself!! now this may bother h..but honestly I see it as not different than me spending money on a new pair of shoes to make me feel better so wtf..why not buy myself flowers??
I need to go out tonight..but once again have nowhere to go...and can't catch a movie cause h wont be home in time for me to make it to the show...suppose I could go to the later show but don't want to be out late...thing is though even if i stay home it's unlikely that I'll be able to sleep as the game doesn't start til 9 so h and buddie will be up and carousin' till midnight or so...
I don't know what I am to do anymore... advice anyone???
oh flowers for me...thank me!!! 
