Well, visualize it and make yourself happy. Just don't do it. you said you gave up all of the fighting stuff when you met her. So work on yourself and stay calm.
the one thing I hope you have seen by reading all of these threads from other people, is that this is not going away any time soon. To focus on anything else in your life is only positive energy spent. To focus on your relationship, and the OM, is creating a lot of energy wasted on NOTHING! Get it?
Try to focus on making yourself the person she wants to be with. Focus on GAL and see where that gets you.
Don't you feel tired at the end of a day when you have been focusing on your relationship. How do you feel when you focus on yourself and things you like doing? Sound better?
M-31 W-25 S-1 1/2 bomb dropped 9-01-06,and repeating over and over "I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be." Groucho Marx.