I am trying to remember when I was calm like this and everything seemed ok without the feeling that something bad had to be on its way cause this is too good to be true. I am doing well and I am not losig weight but I seem to be toning up. I am going to start drinking alot more water too I guess it helps you look better ad I use to drink alot of water but lately my life had been too busy and ME was on the back burner.
I have really tried to put myself in my H's shoes and although I prefer stilettos ( LOL),,

I see where I have left him feeling less than My man and I was so consumed alot of the time with the pain and I was nuturing it instead of nurturing our love. I took such good care of my pain and made sure I watered it everyday,, I took better care of my F*&*&ing pain than I did me. Let it go and be happy gees that IS SCAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARY and literally it was for me,, cause everytime I took a breath abd let go my H would seem to let me down. Now I let go and just fell and kept falling and whether he is there to catch me or not I need to let go and be Happy. I will not be here forever God will one day send for me and then what?

I can say yeah I nutured my pain real well ( I was an expert ) and BTW ~~~ I loved soooo much that I put me on hold and lost who I was ( and had a distant H as a result) and I Stood there waiting for sommone to magically make it all bettter ( AND THE ONLY WAY IT GOT BETTER IS WITH ALOT OF HARD WORK ON MY PART!!). Oh H*ll no not anymore and I cycle with this type of strength but this time I hope to keep it going ,,

I need to ,,
to keep feeling this strong and this grounded.

I am the only one who can make this better,, my H has been waiting for me to be the woman I used to be and why make him wait longer and why wait longer to feel as this good love and all the blesings. It is ok to feel this good it really is and it has taken me far too long to feel like this. Thank you God for helping me,, please keep guiding me and do not let me lose my way . I know I was good and loved my H unconditionally when he was lost last summer,, so do not give up on me and keep helping me shine. Life is too good to keep wasting it dwelling on my broken heart,,, bless me and hold me up if I ever want to give up.
Have a super beautiful day....
God bless...