Ok...everyone hold onto your seats. H came over yesterday while I was still at work. He stayed there to watch 2 of the 3 kids so that my mom and S5 could go to church. When I got home, he was running the sweeper. We put the kids to bed and then he said that he wanted to come over this morning to say gbye to me and the kids before we take off to see his mom in NC. (by the way, he is not going and was not invited) We talked for a few more minutes and then I walked him to the door like every other time. Our 5 month old was fussing so I went in to pick him up and came back to say goodbye to H. I gently rubbed H's stomach and told him to go get some sleep. ( I guess I was wishing for a Genie to pop out) No really, this is just something I normally did to show some affection. It wasn't a kiss or hug, just a nice touch and rub. This is where the lightening may strike......I said good bye and he leaned towards me. I thought he was going to give our baby a kiss and hug but he leaned in and embrased me. HE GAVE ME A HUG AND I DIDN'T INITIATE IT!!!!!!!! Scared the crap out of me. I know that you all would have smacked me but I hugged him tight and told him ILY and he said "Uh huh" I made fun of that and said it back in his ear. He leaned up and had a huge smile on his face.
I think we may be getting somewhere. I have to remember to take this slowly and let him make the first moves.
I have come to the realization that I love him but DON'T NEED HIM! I am perfectly content with where I am and who I have become. Besides, I have dropped a lot of weight and gone down 2 sizes. I feel pretty daggon good!
Just wanted to give everyone who may be interested, a little bit of an update! This was a big step in my eyes, sweeping and getting a hug! Who can beat that?!?
"Be patient to persevere and wait for God to heal. Keep in mind that you are both imperfect people. Look to God as the source of all you want to see in your marriage and don't worry how it will happen...Leave it in His hands."
