H and I have good and bad days.... as expected. Tonight is not so good. H is at drum corps practice. It's a new group, but many of the same ol' people will be there. Hate to even ask if xow is there. Even if she isn't everyone there knows about it. H is wearing wedding ring and keeps saying I have nothing to worry about, but it's only been 5 months since he "returned". I am concerned that "just one look" could turn things back.
I am being positive and light in my mood towards him, but inside I am feeling very ill.
