He cannot get over the OW help us...

[Heartbroken]

C told me to do what makes me feel comfortable and dammit he gets his cake and gets to eat it too!! H gets to have a swinging bachelor pad to decide which woman he wants most? And he gets to come in and out of our home like he's still the involved caring H - like's he's never checked out and this irks me to no end

I just want him to see what he is giving up. Why do I feel I coddle his feelings and ignore mine completely!!!!! It's just so damn frustrating...And I know I cannot control the timeline but can't I control how much he's around or do I even want to???? I am so confused and now sadness is starting to set in in for the first time today. I 'get' to go off and shop by myself (never have been a shopper) when all I want is to go home to a loving H and two wonderful kids. I so regret taking life for granted....why is this soooooo hard. I just feel my heart breaking a little bit once again....