Hi Dave, I've seen you post from time to time, but I wasn't around this forum when your story unfolded. It sounds like you've at least gotten a lot of clarity about your circumstances....
At the very tail end of actively working on the R, I stumbled into a Buddhist meditation class. For some surprising reason, it all finally "clicked". I developed the understanding of my anxiety and it's relationship to everything. Actually, there's a lot of great things that can come from guided meditation. Reduced anxiety = increased differentiation.
This is the next step for me in my personal development....can you expand a little, talk about what you've learned, any recommendations you might have for tapes, books, classes, etc.
Thanks!
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."