I think I'm in a 'patience learning' phase now. I'm doing well with keeping a PMA and trying to bring more deliberate attention to building my relationships with God and my kids. And that feels good!
I have realized that for now, H has NO DESIRE to truly come back to me. Maybe he was never really mine to begin with. The reasons are irrelevant. He just is not there for himself or me or our kids. I feel sadness, but am choosing to focus on faith that somehow his heart will soften someday.
I'm unsure what more to post. I feel like I'm running and progressing in myself, but in my R with H? I'm on a treadmill.
