I AM FEELING BETTER,,,
I had a DRs appt @ 10 am today. I was putting it off and sure that is not going to work. It has improved my outlook so much.
Wow my H is definitely going thru I dunno what.
Last nite he called me and he talked to me again for over an hour and a half. He called me @12:18 am. It was going really well and then it went south and then he also told me he feels like he is still not good enough for me and he always feels like this. I told him I loved him dearly and I am trying so hard to show him how much I love him and how beautiful he is and it would help if he would see himself this way too.
I told him when he was upset that I wish I was there to console him and give him love and he said " Well you know you are welcome to come here whenever,, I just dont have money for you to come"
( In November he said quite the opposite like I was never going to go to Mexico with him again????? I am confused..)

He was actually upset that I have not tried to go see him,, I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo confused it is not even funny.
But I know I am going to keep moving forward and keep working at this.
I need to really keep focused and strong and be who I really am and be his strength right now. I feel different and it feels good actually not to worry or stress everyday. I feel more centered and I like it.
I am off to work out and get fit and keep my mind clear.And get strong so I can knock MY Husband's socks off when he gets home and maybe throw him down and seduce him too and for that I need energy......
Have a beautiful fabulous day.....
God bless....