Life of Job

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Whatis, TO, and Stubborn, Thanks for the posts, they mean even more now.

I am OK today, a little on the teary side. Visited with a client today who's husband of 40 years died last year, she is still lost. I see a little of her coming back, but she has lost her vitality, her strength. She still sees things that remind her of him and gets misty eyed. I just about started crying myself.

My observation is that my wife is not MLC, I wish she was because then I would have some sort of explanation. She is not confused about all of this, she is following the path she started out on back in Nov. She hurts, she is sad, she is scared, she is not the same woman I have loved all these years, but she is not dripping alien toxic goo everywhere, she is just doing what she said she was going to do and to hell with everybody else.

Detachment worries me because when I am at a point where I am uneffected by what she says and does, I would think I would be at a point where I no longer want to be married to her either.

As for getting the anger out, I think I will look into kick boxing. I have to find some outlet because my sad broken heart is slowley being filled with anger, and that just won't do.