IP i have just been reading your thread and wish I had done this before! I am in the same place you were, terrified, can't get emotions under control. It has helped me alot to read your thread and realize if I am not careful I am going to drive H away!
I hope that things continue to go well with you!
Me - 44 H - 44 M - 19yrs together - 23yrs D16 S8 EA/PA - Bomb Oct20/06 Jan 8/07 Feb 01/07 Jul 15/07 H still @ home Recovered!