Jules, I know what you mean about getting mad. I was thinking the other day that I hated the thought of being so angry with spouse that I could give her up...it made me so sad to think of feeling that way about her, the person I so love and who gave me our wonderful DD.
I am sure that part of my emotional make up right now is: Bomb fell right after vacation during spring break '06. The trauma of that horrid "I'm not coming home" phone call can still just rip my heart out. Spring break is coming up and our happy little family is going on vacation. Anniversaries of any event are always traumatic. Early on I told myself I'd give it a year and guess what is almost up? It was a flexible year but I don't want it to become a flexible 5, then 10 years. I deserve better but I want spouse. Funny how we do that ain't it?
Just talking to me helps! All of your answers are "good" Gee, I haven't seen OW in over a week, I hardly know how to act! My only chance this week is Friday when I pick DD up from school. Well at least there is something exciting to look forward to.
I have a shovel and I'm not afraid to use it. Stubby
