Thanks Hope and Snodderly, Today is H's b-day. None of us will see him as s14 (doesn't want to)has swim pracitce and d11 will be at dance today after school and H works nights. I feel really bad.
D11 said that H did not come by after school yesterday to see her. I had her call H before bed and she said that he sounded mad. He said he called her after school but she was napping and didn't hear the phone (truth---as when I came home from work she was still groggy from waking up). She said that H didn't believe she was napping and said that she thougth he was mad at her. I tried to tell her he wasn't but left it at that. She didn't seem to mind.
So, my family is a mess and I see so very little hope in the future as H is so full of venom and blame. I sent him a tm this morning wishing him happy birthday and he just called to see if d11 was going to dance today (something she said she told him last night). He was very short with me and I wished him happy birthday and he hung up.
My marriage as I knew it is gone and my future with H is so unsure, I just will leave H in God's hands for now as there is nothing I can do to fix this.
