Sweet NM, you are putting up with so much stuff. SO much. I cannot imagine all this flying around in your universe. May God bless you and give you His sweet peace in this crap you are navigating.
I love this that you said:
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My own personal fear is being viewed as weak; letting someone know they've hurt me. So I will allow myself to be seen as angry when actually deeply hurt; viewed as a b!tch when it's really shyness; being funny when inside I'm sad.
I will go to great lengths to hide my inner feelings when I think it's going to show weakness on my part. It's taken me a long time to be able to understand that about myself.
This would be me. I want to quote you on my blog, I love it. And kudos to you, dear lady, for recognizing it.
If it were me, for my own self-preservation and a healthier environment for my children, I would be out of there, sistah. Off like a prom dress. BUT. That is my limited viewpoint from this tiny window I have to see you through.
You need to have a fresh place to BREATHE, emotionally, and that is NOT happening for you. I worry about you and how long you can stand up under the weight of this garbage. But, again, it's JMO from what I've read here. You are a wonderful woman, and I want so much for you (and still to clock your SO with a frying pan, as I mentioned many months ago. Offer still stands)
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Is 43:18-19
If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time. Hab 2:3
