Now I'd be lying if I'say I never think of the A/ow, I do it daily,but in passing and dont' dwell on it, hope you are in the same boat hon
I'm reading ( or attempt to) " Can't you read my mind?", about Rs and Ms, looks promising.
==== but knowing the character flaws he has/had I find it harder to express my respect. ==== and that's when respect comes to save the day, to know that your H has his failing but you look them over and love/respect him anyways, to accept his desicions even though they are not what you *ideally* would do.
I chalk the infidelity to a temp. madness, it doesnt define my H, month after month I can glimpse at the good man my H has always been, he had his weak moments and I had my major screwups he looked over for so many years and stuck to my side.
I'll tell you what I told TL, love like you haven't been hurt.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.