Your H is just taking it slow it sounds like InP. Btw, we need to change your name from Inpain to Inbliss! They say, "we are what we call ourselves". Very profound, yes?
Your H is in a good place it sounds like. ML to him might be the piniacle of intimacy and maybe not his primary Love Language (if you've read Gary Chapman's book). It is yours, and that's why when he backs of physically, you descend into fear. That's just a difference between the two of you Inbliss! Nothing to fear or worry about.
H is SHOWING YOU HIS LOVE WITH ACTIONS. I know that you want the ML action, but to him his actions are maybe even more important than ML right now. Just relax and when you feel yourself getting fearful, just make a quick list in your head about all the great things about H and your M...That should help your anxiety to dissipate.
Also remember that couples are mirrors of each other. The more fearful you become, the more likely you will MAKE H fearful. So really focus on the positive.
Have you made a gf yet? How about making a connection with a new aquaintance? I really think that you should push your limits here to grow socially. Develop this part of yourself and just let the pressure off the M and ML for now.
Set a goal to not bring up ML for at least a week. And make a decision to have the happiest, best, most productive week ever! Remember, the future is what we imagine it to be. Don't let life happen to you, make it happen!
You are in a beautiful, loving, generous M and you are married to a very very compassionate, mature human being. Just bask in that for a whole week. Continue to love yourself physically in terms of grooming yourself and say to yourself that you love yourself.
And H saying that he loves you it as good as saying ILY.
Remember to see your H through the eyes of God and also to see yourself that way. That will help you have patience with both yourself and your H.
The next time you post, it has to be something about YOU! Do not mention H or ML! I want to hear about what you did for yourself or something that you did that was different and that pushed you out of your comfort zone. A real good 180! Now go!
love you sweetie...you are an inspiration, never forget that.
rainbowlove ----------------------- JG is coming back to me and we're going to have a family. Positive thinking!
