He cannot get over the OW help us...

[Heartbroken]

I got home from work last night and H was still working on shoveling the driveway (over an hour) he just can't let go of his house responsibilities. I suggested he stay for dinner since he was still there - he agreed. We ate and he had to run to the store and I went to see my C.

Saw C and gave her my 2 wk update. Him busted and moved out to an apt all in less than 2 weeks WOW talk about some serious drama.

C said we need to communicate daily and still try to do dinners with the kids. H agreed (he is so confused)so we will do one nite at the house and one nite at the apt and maybe we go out one night. I know I need to make these positive experiences.

C said not to avoid seeing him and to make all our contacts end in a positive so as to stop the wedge that we have pushed between us. She said if we want to shop for groceries together to go ahead - I think I will wait on this one not sure of it right now. She said he also has to see life w/o us and needs time alone to think.

I got home and went thru with H what the C said. We are not to tell D(12) about the girlfriend yet - to see how it plays out. I asked H if he told Ow that him and I had sex and he said no and asked if I was going to hold that over his head - I said no way I have taken the high road all along and will continue to do so. I told him I thought it was interesting that he lies to her as well as me - this makes me feel better for some odd reason.

Then this AM at the school parking lot I saw Ow. I made eye contact with her and she had the nerve to stare me down--F'in Bitch I mouthed to her (S was in back seat)and this ratteled me so bad I called H (big backslide I know) - he said he understood and knows I need to rant and be angry with him. He got me calmed down and we ended with things better but he ended it saying his coworker was calling (yeah right it probably was the Ow) I need to learn to end it before him and I was doing so well here.

The thing is - I was doing fine this morning, cried only a little, got myself ready and dealt with the kids and did not even think about calling him like I usually want to. And then the site of her just completely set me off -- nice way to get the morning mood set. This just all sucks big time. I hope things improve! Thanks for listening....