I don't know what I think. I think I'm right back where I started. I thought I made a decision on which way to go, I filed and now suddenly I've been sucked back into the vortex of this M....this SAME marriage! How long are we talking? Honestly. I know you're gonna say that only I can answer that, but I need somebody to tell me how fking long I need to do this. I feel like I need to go back to being 'happy' about sleeping on the couch, 'happy' that I don't get a say in things I want to have a say in because if I try the situation will escalate and anger will ensue which will be detrimental to my cause. I just need to live one big lie for an indefinite period of time....smile when I don't want to smile, have sex when I don't want to have sex, back down on parenting issues when I don't want to back down.....what happened to the 'new relationship'? I feel like I've been duped. When I was talking about inviting him into a new relationship and giving him time to decide, I meant within the next month or so. Not two more years.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
