starting the long journey

[jamespb75]

Well, I am going to go out to the bar thurs. night. I will have trapped in the house for three days, and I will need an escape by then.

I talked to the coach, and the first thing is to quit showing my emotions, quit talking about our M, and I have been showing her that I am more in power with myself by making plans that don't evolve around her. I told her, not asked, that I was going to work out after work on thurs and Fri, then I told her I was going to church on Sat. and offered an invitation. But I was not being the way I was, and just coming home after work. I am doing things on my own.

I see a positive, that is she is calling me more at work, and she is trying to stay away from OM. I know this is hard for these people in her situation, but I just have to let it run it's course. She has been telling me everything about the affiar. I am not to interested in all of it, but I let her just keep talking so she can hear herself. I am working on my GAL again, and The problem is for the next three weeks, she will be out of town. Well, it's good but it's bad. Good because I think we need a little space, moving back in has put a little stress, but not as much as I thought, which is good because the A is out and harder for her to be involved in it. Another good is she will be up north, away from him, for the next two weeks. She is spending today thru wed night up there, and then next sunday thru fri., with her parents. Cell phone doesnt work there. So, I will have to deal with her being gone where I can't be there for her. But I won't have to stress if I do see her on the phone. Then She goes to work a week where he is also, and thats stressing. But, I will not worry, because She has alot of others around and I think they will help. By then he might be so angry and not even want to pursue it. But Time will tell.

Those three weeks is when I will really focus on GAL, I will have time to re-read the 180's and get focused for when she comes back.