H took the kids yesterday and I was alone for the first time in a long time. I thought I would cry scream and rant and rave but it lasted a whole two mins. Guess I am not as sad as I thought!
I will ask my C tonight about contact with H (she supports DBing too) so hopefully she will have some input.
H finally told part of the story to his Mom - just that he's moved out and there is another person involved. I talked to her and she was not aware that the third person was something he could not let go...
I feel stronger today - up at 5:20 worked out, did laundry and am ready for work already! I just need to focus on my job and kids and let him choose the path he feels he needs to take.
H said he would call and I said why? To talk about the kids he said...Sometimes I feel I take steps backwards when we talk just because my sadness starts to return. I know I need to be upbeat when talking to him but it sure is hard!
Any hints????!
Me41 H44 * M16 yrs * D13 S10 8/06 H wants a D * 1/07 OW Truth 2/07 Searated * 7/07 H moved home First Thread Surviving Separation Now Piecing