Thank you all so much for your support. It really is appreciated. This rollercoaster is easier for knowing there are others who are going through similar traumas.
Had a generally good weekend. Some sad moments but got through those ok. Did lots of fun things with D and went out to eat wi6h my friend on Saturday night. We talked about going away for a week in the Summer with my D which would be good. When our Ws were still with us we used to go away a couple of times a year so I know we can get on ok, although it would feel a bit odd of course. Another friend came round for dinner last night so keeping busy.
Didn't see W. She had said she couldn't see D on Sunday morning as agreed. I assumed it was because she was going away so that kind of made sense. However I found out yesterday that she was just partying til the small hours. This has annoyed and saddened me. D is less of a priority than her new party life. As you say, I am D's rock.
Her nightmares have improved over the weekend. Not sure when she'll see W this week. I know W is keen to see her (though on her terms) but was concerned about her nightmares too. I think she needs a few days to settle down and I told W that by text. She said she was 'devastated' but understood. No mention of how hard it is for D or me either. I have to stop expecting anything other than selfishness I think.
