URGENT! OW had an abortion, H miserable

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This weekend I actually ended up with H. One friend got too busy, another got really sick. Both my Friday and Saturday plan went out the window. It was funny because I did not ask at all where h was going this weekend. I just assumed he was "going out". On the contrary, he asked if we would go out on both days. Since my plans fell through, we did. We did have another argument Friday night right before dinner but we both calmed down. The whole evening was OK, went dancing (too young a crowd) but left early. Saturday, however, was great. We went for a drink and talked. No R talk until the very end so the whole night was pretty good. At one point at the R talk, he said, "I get to know you so much more these few months. If we get through with this, I know I can be with you forever......" and (in response to my prior questioning of him not wanting to go out with me weeks ago) "My heart now beats fast every time we go out. It's like dating every time." This is good sign. I am secretly hoping I can move to piecing soon. However, knowing h, I know the way he talks. He may have the exact same feeling with OW that he left unsaid. So, I am trying so hard not to get my feelings high up and trying not to PUSH.
So, after this weekend, I think I will need to back off a bit. I can tell he is thinking about OW at times. Good that my friend just called so hopefully we will go out this weekend.