Harmonic Divergence

[Lord Grenville]

I am seeing that every day can bring surprises and that best laid plans and strategies do not always align, and that maybe strategies are not always the way to make decisions. And sometimes helping hands from above can assist.

Anyhow, I prayed fervently last night around a particular event that took place today, and for guidance on how to best communicate my W today. Things turned out better than I had hoped.

After church, I told her that I have realized that a separation is probably best for me, since it will help me to become more confident and help break negative habitual patterns of interaction with her, and of course it would help give her more space and time to think things through. I could tell she was surprised, and yet appreciative. I also asked her to let me know which works of art, music, and books, etc she would like to take with her. She thanked me for that.

We enjoyed our conversation during lunch, and she complimented me on my new shirt, and how good it looked on me! I talked confidently about my job prospects and and how I am looking foward to making art for the enjoyment of it, rather than having the worry of making a business out of it right now.

She talked about how she feels so uncreative right now. I reminded her that she is welcome to take the new work bench I built her last to wherever she ends up going. Then, while looking deeply into my eyes, she thanked me for making such a beautiful workbench!

I also told her how several persons in our condo Association are trying to draft me to be re-elected for another 3 years as a Trustee(which she saw as one of many places I gave too much of my time and energy ahead of our art business) However, when I said: "There is no way I am going to do that again!" She congratulated me and said "Give me a high-five!" I have never seen her do a "high-five" with anyone before, and so this really blew my mind.

I know these are small signs, but for them to happen after only 3 days of GALing, I am very encouraged.

I am realistic and I belive that her R with the OM is probably going to get more serious, but I am going to put up one hell of a head turning 180 in the next months.

Just keep your eyes here for the continuing saga.