starting the long journey

[jamespb75]

Who needs an amusment park. I am on a rollercoaster right now and I can't get off. OM called my W, and I tried to talk her out of calling him like she asked. We started to get in a fight, and I backed off. I told her maybe I am not the right person to help you. She agreed, She called him and they talked. After I went in to talk to her and I was ready to give it all up(emotions talking) and she told me not to worry, it went no where and she told me about the conversation. I felt better, but it still hurts. I asked her for reassurance that part of her wants to be with me, she said yes. she went to bed, and I went in to tell her I needed her help. I asked her to stop me if I started talking about our M, and that she knows how I feel, I don't need to keep telling her. She agreed and I made her chuckle at the end. I felt better about that and I think she will too. I need strength, and it is hard to find. But I know it's not going to come over night, but I hope it comes soon. I know they will talk again, and there is no doubt she will see him. But I have to keep praying that GOD will give her the strength to overcome this.

I need to hold on, just a while longer for my S. If it wasn't for him I would of given up a long time ago. I know she would of filed way back when. She is leaving town for the next few days, and then will be gone the next week. Then the true test because she must go out of town the week after that and he will be there. but she is making arrangments with other coworkers to try to avoid him. This will give us time apart, and I think after the first week together after six months of seperation, we need some time. I need everyones support for the next few weeks to hold on to whats left. Thank you