Journaling:

Got home this morning and saw all H's friends cars parked on the streets. As I have guessed, they are gambling. Yes, at 6am in the morning. Pretty sure they must have began the night before at least at 10pm. But get this, they were still gambling when I left to come to work tonight at 5pm. Are they aiming to complete a 24 hours gambling record. They have been known to have complete a 36 hour run so this will be nothing.

I tried not to let it bother me and it has not. Even though, after working overnight, it would have been nice if H could have taking care of DD, so I may rest. MIL stayed with her until I got home at 6am and came in the room at 9am to find me cradling DD,sitting up in bed and took over caring for her. The thing that eats at me, is that when I woke up at noon today, the kids told me H couldn't take them to the movies as he has promised because his friends won't leave. He would take them tomorrow. I know I shouldn't have, but I said it is his fault if he can't get up and ask them to leave, not his friends fault they are there.

I went in the shower and decided to take the kids myself. My Father is a gambler, so I have experienced a lot of empty promises, practically every promise he has made to me, I was not going to let the kids be let down because gambling and friends are more important than the kids disappoint to H.

MIL was against me taking them, stating H is already doing more for them then their own parents, so if he was going to take them tomorrow, then let him take them tomorrow. I know she means well, knowing my financial situation she didn't want me to waste money. What she said about the kids (mainly BIL's two kids) are right. Their parents don't live with them, the kids live with us. When their parents come to visit, they don't take them out, not even if they were going to rent movies.
But that made me feel even worst for the kids.

I went to eat lunch with my brother and friend. Came back home and took the kids and DD to Target. Got their spirits up a bit to be out of the house. Talked to them about taking them on a trip with DD to celebrate her one year bday. I was stumped as to where and the kids came up with a great idea; San Diego. We would be able to go to Sea World. The last time we went they had a great time.

I want to start the tradition of taking DD on a trip for her bday each year. It would be great if the kids are there too. They are really great kids and should be treated with more care.

No big explosive act on my part, so I will mark this as a good day. ;\) The bright side, may be dimly lit, but it is there.