He cannot get over the OW help us...

[Heartbroken]

Well we are about to tell the kids - when H is done changing the oil on my SUV. I seduced him last night I wanted to ML so bad (afraid it may be my last chance ever = he moves out tonight). He said he was fine with sex - he had sex but I ML and I realize there is a huge difference. I do not regret it but I am ANGRY that I have to worry about wanting sex with him - life sucks and I am so sad today. Not crying around him though - but he knows this is hard.

How can he be telling Ow they are soul mates (or those were her words to her now ex) and then have sex with me? He says I have messed up his head even more now. This is the confusion I see and feel in him. But all this gets my hopes going again. I am trying to be realistic - him leaving means a very good chance of never coming back but I want to be optimistic that we still have a chance of getting through this together.

We had all kids events last night and this morning. We then went to get the keys to his apt. and he let me take a look at it - how can I be so calm and rationale with all this. I am going to help him pack - is this crazy or what????

I used to love my life - now I not sure of anything!!!!!

Feels good to vent - thanks!