My backsliding was due to me getting too comfortable and forgetting to DB. I have since last night recommitted myself to DBing. Afterall, if it doesn't save my M, it will help me keep my sanity and dignity.
My plan for today was: Call my Mom and see if she was free to go with my and DD to the mall and shop for SIL's bday gift and my friend's brial shower gift. And afterwards, to meet up with friend to have an early dinner before coming in to work tonight.
Woke up this afternoon with an extra blanket. Guess H realized I was cold. H was gone when I woke up. Got to play with DD. As I was getting the car seat setup, H came home and asked if I was taking DD to see my Mom. I said no, I was taking her out.
Before I left, MIL commented why didn't H go with me and DD. I told her no, it was okay. As I was getting DD into car seat, H came and offer to come along. DD tends to cry when she is alone in the back seat. I said okay.
On the drive there, I had to make some phone calls regarding scheduling for work and school so we did not talk.
At the mall, we talked as usual and H made some comments which got me to laugh. H smiled at times too. No I will not let it get to my head. As I see it, it would be nice even if we can not be a couple, we can be friends, so I am not seeing it as more than that. I would like to protect my heart as well.
On the drive home we talked about the kids and disciplining. During the convo, H mentioned he was not home last night, which made me wonder where he went, but I didn't ask.
After returning home, I got ready to leave for dinner with my friend. I have not been out with my friends for a long time and it felt great to do something outside the home with a friend.
