Well at last you'll be pleased to hear I've had a great day! I read most of DR last night in bed as I decided I really needed to remind myself of some of it. I kind of discovered why I'm struggling. I'm still in LR mode because that is really the chapter I read over and over because we were separated. Having read most of it again I have now realised I should no longer be doing that and should now be doing the beginning chapters that apply when partner is interested in saving the M. So I woke up today feeling much more positive (hooray I hear you all cry!!).
Met up with H in town and bought a gorgeous top and some new jeans as all mine are now 3 sizes too big thanks to the wonderful WAS diet. (one of the good things to come from this stich). I feel fab in the top and H said I looked very slim in it - which I did.
Anyway the best bit is when we got home H hugged me for ages in the kitchen and I had a bit of a suggestive joke about with him and then he decided to have a nap before his shift. He said things must be changing because what just happened hadn't made him feel uncomfortable AND he kissed me, properly, and he definitely wanted to and he definitely didn't feel awkward doing it. It was amazing, it blew me away and now I'm on cloud 9!!!! If this is what I get from 3 days of silence on the subject it definitely gives me an incentive to carry on.
I wonder if the rest of us piecers are still in LR mode when we shouldn't be. I think because most of us start off in such a dire sitch we have to do LR mode and don't pay much attention to the bits of the book for less dire M problems.
