Hi Running! I appreciate your advice so much. In my mind I know that H needs to initiate R talk and getting back together but I was having those anxious thoughts of "what if" this afternoon. Those feelings come and go but I never act on them without asking myself if what I am going to say/do will bring me closer to or farther from my goals. That really helps me to focus.
Your suggestion for my response to H when he does the future "we" talk is great...I would have never thought of that. My PMA is pretty good today, I enrolled in classes for my graduate program. I am so excited to get back into school so I can have my own interests again, my own life, and meet new people.
In the beginning of our separation I did what you mentioned about not getting my hopes up and waiting on things to happen before letting excitment kick in. So far H has come through on all that he has said and more. We see one another 1-2 times a week and he calls often. Considering that, it is hard to not feel hopeful but I know the let down is bad and so living in the moment is most important.
